Ok, so I finally got a couple minutes to put some of the pictures online. These are just the ones of people that I recognized as I was scanning through really fast. More to come later…

http://schester.com/pictures/040522prom/040522prom.html

I hope you don’t mind… I hope you don’t mind…

So this song has been stuck in my head for a while now… I wonder why??? I wonder who could have gotten this song stuck in my head? Maybe it doesn’t help that I can’t stop thinking about her and it isn’t even me singing the song that is stuck in my head, it is her singing it that I keep pulling up. Maybe it was the fact that she told me she was going to drive me crazy with this song… I just don’t think her definition of crazy matches mine… Cause I’m going crazy, that’s for sure. I can’t forget the smile on her face as she was singing the lines over and over…

My gift is my song and this one’s for you

And you can tell everybody that this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it’s done
I hope you don’t mind, I hope you don’t mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you’re in the world

I sat on the roof and I kicked off the moss
Well some of these verses, well they, they got me quite cross
But the sun’s been kind while I wrote this song
It’s for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting, but these things I do
You see I’ve forgotten if they’re green or they’re blue
Anyway the thing is, what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I’ve ever seen

And you can tell everybody that this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it’s done
I hope you don’t mind, I hope you don’t mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you’re in the world
I hope you don’t mind, I hope you don’t mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you’re in the world

I hope you don’t mind… I hope you don’t mind…

…

So let’s see… last night was awesome. I think it is safe to say that I’m going out with a bang! I don’t remember having that much fun at any of the past proms, and I have been to 8 of them now! I went over to pick Amanda up about 4 and ended up talking with her and her parents for almost a half hour before we left. We weren’t sure what to do for dinner, but it seemed like Cheesecake would be the right thing to do so that’s where we headed. The wait was only 15-20 minutes and we tried walking around the mall, but the pager started going off while we were walking around the top floor so we rushed back to get our table. Amanda managed not to get stuck in any of the escalators, unlike that one girl we saw… (i don’t think she really got stuck, but the dress looked like it!) We both had the usual at Cheesecake, but no dessert as we were stuffed and knew what was waiting for us at the Hyatt. We actually got there just about 7 o’clock which is honestly pretty amazing if you ask me…

When we first got there we took pictures before anyone else was there and then just tried to figure out what was going on for the evening. The first hour and a half was pretty quiet and we just kind of walked around, talked with people, surprised a lot of people and whatever else we could find to do. At one point we walked around outside the building and then when we came back in we took the elevator up as far as it would let us, the 14th floor, and tried to look at the little windows that they had. We were able to see a small corner of the Temple which looked pretty awesome all lit up at night. At one point we ended up helping out in the coat check room because the jackets were coming in faster than they could hang them up. Amanda and I got a pretty good system going though, but we had to go and run the ballots for prom king & queen. I must admit that Amanda and I made a pretty good team all around all night long. I have never found someone else that I was actually comfortable working the scantron machine with, but she was doing better than I was at feeding the ballots through! I think she’s going to replace me now… :’( Maybe she’ll invite me back next year… I mean she had my camera and was having fun taking pictures and was on top of the ballot situation…

Once we got the results we walked out to the ballroom to see the coronation. We couldn’t actually see anything from where we were standing … Ashley, her sister, came over and asked if I had taken her dancing yet and we said no as we had been too busy. I quickly fixed that problem as soon as the DJ started playing This Magic Moment. Of course just as we were getting comfortable, we noticed this annoying strobe light going off — oh wait, that was my flash! Tina had found us and was taking tons of pictures. I didn’t even care for once, but I think that Amanda was getting annoyed. After our dancing I think we headed back to the chaperone room to rest for a couple minutes so that we could make it through the rest of the evening. We ended up getting kicked out of the room because security needed it for a bit so we just hung out right outside the room and eventually made it back into the ballroom for the 2 last dances, I Will Remember and Long Time Coming. I was smart this time though. I had the camera and it came in useful as Amanda found Ashley and her date and took a couple pictures of them.

We left just about as soon as the dance was over and were going to head home, but Amanda said she wanted to see the Temple so we tried to find it by just driving around, but that didn’t quite work out when the road ran out, so I whipped out the laptop and got online to get directions. We finally found it, spent a couple minutes looking at it from the car and then continued the drive home. Maybe in a couple weeks I can actually go into one…

Amanda fell asleep on the drive home as I was expecting … I kept wanting to pull out a quarter just to see what she would do.

I’m so lost as to what to do with her. I was doing fine until last night and this morning with telling myself that we were just going to be great friends. … Now I don’t think I can take it anymore. …

… I know we all say that Lauren is crazy, but what are the chances that she is right? …

So the song that came on last night after I dropped Amanda off, seemed rather appropriate too…

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I’m alive
And these are the moments I’ll remember all my life
I’ve found all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything in me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
And these are the moments
I know all I need is this
I’ve found all I’ve waited for, yeah
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
Every dream I’ve had’s come true
Yeah, right here in this moment
Is right where I’m meant to be
Here with you here with me
Yeah

These are the moments I thank God that I’m alive
And these are the moments I’ll remember all my life
I’ve found all I’ve waited for, yeah
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
Every dream I’ve had’s come true
Yeah, right here in this moment
Is right where I’m meant to be
Oh, here with you here with me
No, I could not ask for more
Than this love you gave me
Cause it’s all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more
No, yeah
No, I could not ask for more

…

Today wasn’t much better… I got up and drove her to the airport and waited with her as long as I could. I really don’t like these post 9/11 security rules. I was really close to buying a ticket just so that I could go to the gate with her. It is probably a good thing that I didn’t though because I had a hard enough time letting her go as it was. I stood there and watched her go through security and just watched until she was out of sight. I started crying as soon as I saw her walking away and had to leave before it got really bad… …

Once I got home I talked with Alison for a bit online and then it was off to church with Larilyn. After church we went to her house for dinner and then we met with the missionaries. More on this later, but I have got to get some sleep tonight!

I called Amanda today just to see how things were going, to make sure that she was out shoe shopping and all that and we just talked for a couple minutes, but it really made me feel good. She was in the car with her mom and her mom said that I scored some major brownie points which was really good. I guess I’ll just have to see how many points I can score… …

Friday was fun. I got kind of a late start on the day as I was so tired from not really sleeping the night before. Let’s just say that I was anxious for what was to come… I can’t even remember what I did in the morning, oh yeah… I washed my truck instead of going for a bikeride. After that I headed down to the school and recorded Omar’s voice over for Prom. Just as I was starting to setup with him I got the phone call I had been waiting for. Amanda called to say that she talked to her boss and she did indeed have the weekend off. I told her that I would get this voice over recorded and then I would book the flight. Booking the flight wasn’t as easy as one would have thought though. I was searching orbitz, but then found a cheaper fair on delta, got all the way through to the last page where it said that she would have to present my credit card to get the ticket. I then called Delta who said that they could set it up so that I could show my credit card and pay for the ticket at a ticket counter elsewhere so at this point it looked like I was going to be driving to an airport to show them my ID. Fortunately I talked to Ryan and he suggested that I go to Branson Travel where they were able to create a new ticket for her and I was able to pay there. It did cost me an extra $25, but I think that was worth the not having to drive to an airport and sit there for hours waiting for her, not that I wasn’t going to do it.

After that I had to deal with getting the court pictures printed and had to drive to Temecula to pick up the tuxes for the staff as they didn’t deliver them Friday morning. After that I headed home and just hung out for a while after trying on my tux. I did have to disappoint Lairlyn today who was planning church, dinner and a meeting with the missionaries for Sunday. I really didn’t want to cancel on her, but I made the commitment to Amanda weeks ago, and Prom only happens once a year, not to mention that this will probably be my last prom. As of now, I don’t even know how I could go out with things any better. …

I left for LAX at 6:30 and got there at 8:30, parked and found the airport at the airport (the free wireless internet!). I waited anxiously for Amanda to arrive, trying to get caught up with my blog while talking with Alison, Batch, Rande and Chad. …

After we got her luggage and got out of the airport we headed to In & Out because she has been deprived for so long, I know I’m going to be deprived here in a bit. I know it’s only 8 weeks, but the more I think about this the more it seems like I may just never come back. I guess that will just depend on the employment situation because that is the only reason that I have to come back to CA… to make some money. I know that many others think the same thing: They think that I’m going to really love it there and not want to come back and trust me, I am hoping that becomes true. After In & Out we stopped at Krispy Kreme because she had never had a fresh doughnut off the line. She wasn’t all that impressed, but maybe it was just because she was full from In & Out. From there it was home until Ryan decided to call and convince us to go to Friday’s. We decided to stop by for a really quick drink, but ended up staying for a while. Then it was home and she even stayed awake the whole way. …

As I was driving home last night after dropping her off this song came on …

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I’ve never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don’t know how you do what you do
I’m so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I’m amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

I don’t know how you do what you do
I’m so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I’m amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I’m so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I’m amazed by you.

I was just listening to the song …

I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I’m amazed by you

Oh, and then there was last night when We Danced (probably my favorite song of all time) came on …

I’m not sure what is on the agenda for today, other than Prom. It is probably time for me to get in the shower and start facing the day. I have to take a mouse down to the school for Batch and head over to Denise’s. I should also call Travis and see how things are going and make sure that he doesn’t need anything else. I’m not sure what the dinner plans are yet, but I’m sure that we will figure something out… Five hours… I can make it…

So I got a little sidetracked last night while I was writing and kind of stopped. …

Back to yesterday. I woke up to the phone ringing and started putting out the fires for the day. It turns out the DVD master I made for Pat the other week didn’t have enough black at the beginning and had a spelling error that had to be fixed. That kind of changed my morning plans, but things worked out anyways. I was planning on meeting up with Larilyn to talk about life in the morning, but we didn’t end up meeting until early afternoon and I had to reschedule another thing I had going, but it all worked out. Larilyn and I ended up going to Oscar’s for lunch because I was starving and was in the mood for a salad. We hung out there for a while and just talked, but again we didn’t get into anything too deep, but that is as much my fault as hers… I just don’t know what questions to ask. After lunch it was off to the Bob for the choral concert.

As Rod & Lauren were pulling up I happened to be walking through the lobby and walked outside, grabbed a quarter and went to talk to Rod & Lauren’s mom as they were stopped in an odd spot in the parking lot. We ended up sitting there talking for about 20 minutes which was interesting. i tried to pay her for the text messages that I sent Amanda over the past month (just two!), but she wouldn’t take my money. We talked about all sorts of random things, but the real interesting thing was what Lauren said later about me talking to her mom: If you want to talk to my mom, you’ll have to marry my sister. I don’t remember the exact words, but it was something along those lines. I had to sit there and think about that for a minute or two and then finally responded with: “Is that an offer?” I think I spent a good portion of the night thinking about her comment. The day was actually interesting all around as Lauren was playing it off as if she was my best friend.

…

Lots of interesting developments here since I last wrote. Wednesday didn’t turn out to be anything big in terms of stuff going on. I stopped by Target, Mervyn’s, Oscar’s, the post office and the high school (to give Batch some breadsticks) before going home. I stayed at home all night and talked with a bunch of people online. The big conversation was of course with Lauren. We tried to get this worked out some more, but I think we found out that wasn’t going to happen at some point. Lauren wants to make our professional relationship OK, but I guess forget about the personal, which is too bad, but I guess whatever it takes. We did finally get to what I think is the root of the current issues…

…

So yeah, like I said, I think we finally got somewhere. Sadly, I was actually happy with what she said. Kind of depressing that she thinks of me that way? Yes and I really don’t know why cause that is just the opposite of what most people tell me. The first thought into my mind was Anna in Norma’s office telling me that she wants to be on the committee to select my wife. Well maybe it is time to call that committee in because I’m ready… I just thought it was rather interesting. Most people say that I would make an excellent husband and I have to think that I would. I mean, all I want in life is someone to love and I think we all know that I would do anything for her. I thought that Ryan put it nicely:

Ryan Promack: haha

Ryan Promack: i’m sorry

Ryan Promack: it’s not really funny

Ryan Promack: but it kinda is

Ryan Promack: and as far as what she said to you…

Ryan Promack: DON’T LISTEN TO A WORD OF IT

Ryan Promack: in all honesty…

Ryan Promack: any girl would be lucky to marry you

Ryan Promack: you are one of the most devoted, supportive, caring guys i have ever met

Ryan Promack: and will make a great husband for any girl

Scott Chester: thanks.

…

Oh well. I actually went to bed happy that we just finally got somewhere beyond the same old thing of her being mad at me for going out with her sister against her wishes. I wasn’t even surprised by her statement when she said it, I think that someone had prepped me for that. I don’t remember who it was, but I think that someone had presented that view, it was just interesting to hear it from Lauren. …

I got a random surprise around 11 this morning which was great. Amanda called me to thank me for her wake up call this morning, but when I called she was actually already in the shower, which I guess is a good thing that she was up and going so early this morning. … All I can think about is going out there. I’m considering leaving a couple weeks before class even starts just so that I can get away and be there. That would actually be nice because it would give me some real vacation time without having to deal with school and would give me some time to get settled into things before classes start. …

Business Law class was short today which was nice cause I’m ready to go home. I’m hoping that we get out of ISDS class early today too, but she probably won’t let us take the quiz until towards the end of class, but we will have to see. I’m not honestly sure what is going on tonight. Lauren had asked me if I would edit a video for her earlier, but I don’t know if we are still on for that tonight. Batch is at the Bob tonight, but he will be there long past the time that I’m driving through Temecula, although I am planning on stopping and doing some shopping. Maybe Norma will be working at Target and I’ll stop there, although I think she doesn’t start working until after I would be there, I guess this whole timing thing today just isn’t working out at all! Well, I guess I can’t say that…

I don’t even know what to write today. I’m so bored that I can’t think of anything… Last day of classes, and only one left to go! I’m not looking forward to finals next week, but I guess I should be because then that will mean that this is over with! It looks like this weekend I’m going to try and work on an end of the year video for the high school. I don’t know what kind of footage I have to make the video with, but we will have to see. I should actually have a lot of time this weekend to do it because I cleared my schedule with all the varying travel plans. I just have a wedding Friday night, Prom Saturday night, I guess I’m going again, and nothing Sunday. Then Monday I’m back in Fullerton for the entire week as I have finals Monday, Wednesday and Friday. This would mean that I would have to either get the video done before coming back up on Monday or I would have to go back to Fallbrook to work on it, which I don’t really want to do at $30 in gas round-trip and only being in class for an hour or two each day. I can’t wait for Idaho… No more driving home, I’ll be stuck there! I’m looking forward to being stuck there…

I spent almost all of yesterday working on my Econ paper, primarily just because I didn’t want to do it. I think it is now as done as it is going to get. It’s nothing great, but I’m just tired of dealing with it. I took a break around 4, went out to lunch at KFC and then went shopping at Costco, Best Buy and Staples. I spent $120 or something at Costco on just miscellaneous stuff, but it was all stuff that I needed, well it was all stuff that someone needed. I walked into and out of (thanks Rande) Best Buy without buying anything. I was looking for a printer and they didn’t have anything that really caught my eye so I left and even looked at CDs without buying anything, and no I didn’t steal anything either! At Staples I found the printer I was looking for, an HP LaserJet 1012. It’s this very little laser printer for school that cost $200, which isn’t bad for a laser. I figured that I was going to need something for Idaho and I needed to print my Econ paper somehow so I figured it would be a good investment. It is actually pretty fast too, 15 pages per minute and the first page out in 10 seconds or so. It folds up and is really light so that was a plus.

After the break I came back and finished up my report. After that I started talking with a bunch of people online – Rande, Batch, Ryan, Alison, Alana, Larilyn and Lauren. Yes, Lauren. I guess she was getting tired of everyone being mad at her so she wanted to fix things with me so that everyone else wouldn’t be mad at her anymore. I don’t know that we actually got anywhere with the conversation, I think we just established what was already known, that she is jealous because I spent so much time with her sister when she was home. The conversation came to a stand still when she said something and I wanted her to explain it…

…

I was planning on watching a movie or something last night and getting to bed early, but I don’t think that happened because I was talking to so many people. I hadn’t heard from Amanda all day though so I gave her a call about 10:15, but she was at Albertson’s buying a CD-R so that she could burn her PowerPoint project for class tomorrow. She couldn’t upload it to webshare because the power went out earlier and it messed up something with the Internet. Maybe that would explain why I was having issues with the site yesterday, although I think those problems were on this side of the connection. When I called her back later, we talked briefly about apartments and she gave me some recommendations, so I’ve got some calls to make to see what the exact deal is. …

Time for a shower now and then off to school for 2 classes. I have a quiz today in ISDS and haven’t paid attention for the past couple weeks… maybe I should try and figure out what is going on there after I get out of the shower…

Alias won’t be on the air this fall, but the rumor is that it will be back in January.

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=797&e=10&u=/eo/14133

I know that you all won’t believe it, but I’m actually staying in Fullerton this week! Everything actually worked out and here I am. Now I just hope that I can get all of the stuff done today that I need to get done, but I don’t really see why I wouldn’t, it’s not like I have anything else to distract me with. I have a paper due in Econ tomorrow and I have a lot of other reading that I should be doing for class to prepare for finals.

Class actually went fairly well yesterday except that I had a really hard time keeping myself awake. When I got in my ISDS class I checked my email and I had a reply from BYU as to how I could register for classes so I spent the entire class looking for classes to signup for. As of now I am enrolled in two religion classes and that is it. There are other ones that I want to signup for, but they are full so I will probably have to crash them on the first day of class. I already emailed one teacher asking if I could get put on the waiting list, so we will see. It turns out that we won’t have Econ on Wednesday, we just have to turn in our papers, so I’m debating about (assuming I get the paper done before class is supposed to start) do I just drive back to Fallbrook when I get out of ISDS at 3:45 or do I hang out. I have no clue what traffic would be like at 4 o’clock on a wednesday, but I have a feeling that is when it starts to get really bad, but maybe I could beat it or just be in the first bit of it – we will have to see.

I talked with Amanda a lot yesterday which was great. Shortly after I opened my laptop while eating dinner she im’d me and we talked for a while, but she had to go to the library to study and take a quiz. We kept signing off and then talking for another couple minutes. We finally made it past the goodbyes and then after I finished dinner I called her to see if she was really on her way to the library. I told her that I was going to beat her, but she didn’t like that so I told her that I would walk really slow which I did and then I stood outside the library waiting for her to get there (to her library). Then as she was getting closer I walked at an ant’s pace to the front door and we hung up as we both walked in our respective libraries. I reviewed for my accounting exam and then went up to the 6th floor to check out some books, “One Nation Under Gods: A History of the Mormon Church” and “The Book of Mormon” to give me some reading material in case I get bored of my actual homework in the next day or so.

After I got to the house and talked with Floate for a while on the phone Amanda started IMing me again. We talked for a while and then I told her that she had to go work on her Plato project. We agreed on 45 minutes so I left her alone to do it for 45 minutes and then called her to congratulate her. This was after I made her put up an away message so that I could tell she wasn’t talking to anyone else. When I called her she was still working on her project and didn’t answer, but she called me back within a couple minutes and we talked until we both got in bed and went to sleep. She talked about calling me in the morning to wake me up as she was going to work, but as far as I can tell she didn’t call. I actually woke up at 6:30 and thought about calling her and telling her it was time to wake up, but I wasn’t sure if I would wake-up Becky or anyone else so I didn’t want to call.

Not sure what is going on with Lauren, she didn’t call me last night and I’m giving her space so I’m not responding to anything on her livejournal or going to call her and try to work this out because I don’t want to make her any more aggravated with me than she already is. I wish someone could give me some insight as to what really happened here. I know what put her over the edge, but I don’t really know what started everything. I think this started before Amanda came home and that was just the incident to blame it on. I hate to be arguing about something like this, but I really think she just isn’t mature enough to even want to work it out so I’ll keep waiting, or maybe I’ll move to Idaho and not have to deal with her until the wedding… (that was a joke for those of you who can’t figure those things out!) I really don’t want to do that though, I wish we could just go back to being friends.

Yesterday was pretty frustrating. Lauren and I managed in one way or another to tick just about everyone off. I don’t know what is going on between her and me, but I am pretty sure it is a lack of communication. She doesn’t seem to be open to the idea that I am going to Idaho for any other reason besides Amanda. This is really hard to explain because when it boils down to it I am going because of Amanda for sure, but I’m not going there just because I want to marry her. Why is it that people can’t see past that? Isn’t it possible that I need a change and this seems like the best possible change that I’ve found. Larilyn made a comment the other day about her not going to BYU with any friends and that she has more friends there than she did in Fallbrook. I don’t know how she made the move without any friends, but at least I will have one friend there when I get there. Yes Lauren, I know that she is a busy girl and isn’t going to spend 100% of her time with me, but I would never expect that from anyone, even if I was going just to hang out with them. I, of all people, definitely understand that people have a life going already and are busy. I’m not going to Idaho just to hang out with Amanda. I’m going there to get away for a while, relax, take some new/different classes and just experience a different area of the country and a different lifestyle that I’m not quite used to. I am dying to get away from the daily hassles of life and am now trying to figure out when it is that I want to go out there. I know that classes start June 29th, but how far before hand do I want to be there? I was thinking about going up mid-week the week before, but now I am wondering if I shouldn’t go up earlier. I guess it will really depend on how things go in the next couple weeks. I do have a lot of stuff to do like finding a place to live while I’m out there and taking care of getting my current obligations covered.

I was at the Bob yesterday at 5 in the morning, but I got to leave around 2 to go to GT for a wedding. It was nice to have a change of scenery and get some fresh air even though I almost kept falling asleep during the wedding. I guess I should probably tell the folks at GT that I will be taking a vacation and I need to figure out what we are going to do with the Friday night weddings while I am gone, as Richie doesn’t want to commit to working all of them. …

After GT I went home and debated about what I should do. After talking for a while I was going to watch some TV, but then Lauren IM’d me just so that she could block me which kind of set me off again. She of course was the topic of conversation for the next period of conversations, yet hardly any of those conversations included her! We actually did talk briefly, but didn’t get anything solved when she unblocked me. I tried to get her to talk so that we could work things out, but as usual, she didn’t want to talk. Maybe she will call today and we can work things out, but who knows. For now I am just going to give her the space that she has asked for. She knows how to get a hold of me, so I’ll be waiting to hear from her before I make any contact.

I was finally able to go back to watching Smallville and then as I was just about ready to get into bed I remembered that I hadn’t done the marquee yet so I did that and in order to do the marquee I had to update the calendar so it took a while. I got in bed around 10 and I think that I just lied there, or maybe slipped in and out of sleep for a while because I was right there to answer the phone when it rang at 10:50. Amanda was returning my call to check and see if she had gotten her homework done. She finally did get it done which was good, I guess she did better than me! We were both pretty tired, but seemed to have no problems talking for over an hour. I was glad that she called because she was able to put me back into a good mood and I was able to take my mind off of the problems at hand. I don’t know what it is about her, but she is always able to lift my spirits. By the end of the conversation not only was I happy, but I didn’t really want to go to sleep (but it was after 1 her time). Fortunately though, I was able to go to sleep within minutes of hanging up which let me get just over 6 hours of sleep before getting up at 6:30 this morning. It was so nice to be able to sleep in! I am really looking forward to tomorrow because I can really sleep in as I have nothing to do tomorrow other than my paper for Econ. I actually have some shopping and hopefully some other stuff that I can get done while I am up here tomorrow too and maybe Aimee and I can meet up and catch up… I guess it all depends on how long it takes for me to get this paper done.

Well, I guess I should be getting ready for class so that I can go dream of Idaho… I mean, pay attention completely during the last week of class… I actually have an exam tonight in accounting that I should probably be studying for, but oh well…

I went home last night from the Bob really tired and frustrated. I was so ready to get out of here and so tired of just dealing with everyone. Don’t get me wrong, I love yelling at people all day long, but it does get old after a while, especially when you are always doing the same thing and yelling at the same people. What I really don’t like is when I have to yell at people I know. Between being at work for 18 hours or whatever and everything else that is going on, I just about lost it last night. I think the significant incident would have been after Pat Kelly came by to drop off his new wireless mics for us to hook up and I checked my voice mail. … We were going to go out to dinner, but I had told myself I was going to leave at 11:30 so that I could get home and sleep and it was almost 11:15 as we were leaving the Bob, so that wasn’t going to work out that well.

Anyways, talked to Ryan on the way home and he is just about done with the dance dvd, so I’m going to get to start working on duping it probably later today. …

Ahh…. What to do???

So I was here at the Bob all freaking day yesterday. I was expecting to be here from 7 a.m. until about 7:30 p.m. and figured that I would actually even get to be out early last night, but oh wait – someone neglected to tell me (or I neglected to process it) that they were doing competition last night and that we were going to be here until 11:30! Oops! We actually got out a little bit earlier than that, ran to Friday’s for a really quick meal (cause Bouse was home) and then it was home to get 3 hours of sleep. The day went pretty well, but it was long of course. I actually had some good talks with Floate over all sorts of things…

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This morning I was back at the Bob at 6 o’clock, how fun! I’ve been here the whole day without really having a break and should be here until about 11 o’clock tonight. Then of course, I have to be back here at 5 a.m. tomorrow! I am so not looking forward to that! Today actually went pretty good. We had some big houses and some time of running around going crazy. Steve, the fire safety inspector, stopped by a couple of times today which was nice. …

Well, I just got the email:

… I am a student Admissions counselor here at Brigham Young University Idaho. I have recently been informed of your situation. I have spoken with the clerk that you have been consulting with, and she wishes to inform you that you have been accepted for the second summer term 2004. It is important to understand that this is not a full time student acceptance, but for the summer only. You may register for classes at your convienience.

I have read in your E-mails that you have sent, which stated, you might want to attend here as a full time student. I have reviewed your transcript, and have noted that you have close to 90 credits or more. At BYU-I, transfer students with more than 75 semester credit hours are generally not admissable. The reason for this, is so we can save space for new coming freshmen that have not had the chance to attend college. If at the end of your summer stay, you wish to come as a full time student starting winter semester, you will need to submit a plan of graduation as well as a petition explaining your desires. I personally would see to this petition, and do all that I could for you. If you wish to come, do not feel like it is a lost cause. As I stated above, I would do all that I could to get you in. If you have any questions, feel free to contact me …

So I guess it now looks like I will be going to Idaho for sure now for the summer. I guess I should start putting my affairs in order for my “vacation.” Now I just have to figure out what classes I want to take and then try to get into them, seeing as how most of the classes are full. I guess I’ll tackle the winter admission after I go there for the summer and try it out.

Almost everyone lately has really been giving me a hard time about this and while I can understand why and actually appreciate some of it I guess that people just not have the full picture, so I’m going to try to give out as much of the full picture as I am comfortable giving out… I am so close to being completely burnt out here in Fallbrook, in Fullerton and in life in general that I need a really big change. I’ve been trying to figure out what to do for a while, but haven’t found anything that I was able to get interested in. One day, probably mostly as a joke, Amanda said that I should come to school out there and when I started looking into it I thought it could be interesting, but I wasn’t really serious about it for a while. I talked to some people and looked into the school some more and I want to go there more and more everyday. As of now, I am just going for 8 weeks over the summer for a vacation. While I am there I am hoping to take some classes and try out the school because this could be the place of my dreams. I’m actually almost afraid of going there because I may fall in love and may want to continue going to school there. I realize that this would be a really big change for me, but I’m ready for a big change and while I don’t think I could have ever even dreamed this, this could be what I’ve been looking for. Then there is the Amanda situation. Almost everyone seems to think that I am following her. The truth of the matter is that I am. She had a really good idea, even if it did start out as a joke and I’m going to investigate her suggestion until I know I love it or can’t stand it anymore. And yes, I am also looking into the Mormon religion. Does that mean that I’m going to convert tomorrow? no. Does it mean that I’m doing it to get married to a Mormon woman? No. I’m doing this because I really know nothing about the religion (or practically any religions for that matter) and am very interested in learning. This will be a very interesting and eye-opening couple weeks for me and as I’ve said, it is all I can think about and I am dying to get out there. In fact… I could just go out there and take a look at things some weekend…

Any questions? Please let me know. Also, please know that I do appreciate that everyone is “looking out for me.” I want to know what you think and all that, but I am hoping that everyone will keep an open mind about all of this. Thank you!