You held my hand and walked me home, I know
While you gave me that kiss, it was something like this that made me go ooh ohh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears
Why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn’t enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust

Did I not tell you that I’m not like that girl
The one who gives it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was something I was gonna do and cry?
Don’t try to tell me what to do
Don’t try to tell me what to say
You’re better off that way, yeah

Don’t think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants, I’ll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I’m gonna ask you to stop, thought i liked you alot, but i’m really upset (really upset)
Get out of my head, get off of my bed
Yeah, that’s what I said

Did I not tell you that I’m not like that girl
The one who throws it all away, yeah

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was something I was gonna do and cry?
Don’t try to tell me what to do
Don’t try to tell me what to say
You’re better off that way, yeah

This guilt trip that you put me on won’t
Mess me up, i’ve done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone
Away, yeah

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was something I was gonna do and cry?
Don’t try to tell me what to do
Don’t try to tell me what to say
You’re better off that way, yeah

Better off that way

I’m better of alone anyway

~ Avril Lavigne

I got through two lessons of phil today, thanks once again to Allison. I was leaving the library this afternoon, ready for a break and got downstairs, talked with Becca for a bit and then we saw Allison coming in. So I went back upstairs and finished the lesson I was working on. Earlier today I met with Josh Williams in admissions and it looks like I have to write a letter of appeal to the board to see if I can get them to accept me. We can’t even guess which way it would go, so it isn’t worth speculating, but hopefully i can come up with a compelling enough letter for them to let me in.

I went to Guitars Unplugged tonight with Allison, her sister, Lesley, and her friend. I’m glad that she asked about it because I had great time for $3, and I even have BYU-Idaho stamped on my hand now. There were a couple good groups, and a couple good songs, but none that were really bad or anything. It was a good show and I’m happy we went. We didn’t wing the guitar though. After the show we went back to her apartment for a bit and then we all took off for the beach party dance. I’m still not used to being a participant in any of this, but Allison tried to teach me a salsa dance, but I think she gave up! We did one other dance – to Britney – Everytime – that DJ was in love with Britney or something because I think he played almost all of her music! After that we played volleyball for a while, then the girls went back to dance while I kept playing volleyball. After the girls left we started to get really bad, so I gave up after a while and regrouped for a bit. Then Allison and I decided to walk home. We came back here and finally broke into the ice cream. Because of curfew (and because it is hot in our apartment for some reason) we went outside and sat in the bed of the truck and had our ice cream. She seemed happy with the Breyer’s white mint choc. chip… she had never heard of it before! I walked her home and that was the night.

Tomorrow it is back to the library bright and early and then I’ve got to deal with tables (it feels like I’m back home) with Becca around noon, and I’m not sure where that is going to take me… I have two lessons left to get done in phil, along with some other homework, and maybe if I’m lucky some fun too!

Another night of not quite enough sleep, but I had a good day even though I was falling asleep through most of it. Religion went well and then it was off to the business academic advisor to see what they could tell me about making a graduation plan. That went fairly well, although I need to find a syllabus from my isds 265 class at Fullerton and also my Anth 100 class from Palomar to take care of some credits. I really don’t want to have to take that intro to computer apps class again, and it would be awesome if I could transfer my anthropology class over so that I don’t have to take a biology class. (I was thinking about giving human anatomy another try if I have to.) I’m planning on meeting with admissions tomorrow to see where we are and give them the plan that I made. I am going to be over credits, but hopefully we can make it all work out anyway. Econ went well today, I was actually surprised when it was over.

Home for lunch as usual and then dragged myself to the library at about 2 to get some reading done. I got a lesson done in phil and got the reading done for psych tomorrow before coming home. I wasn’t sure what to do for dinner, so I watched an episode of 24 and then I called Tara to see if we were doing movie night, but she said that her best friend was coming up and they were going out, so no movie tonight. So, I got my Little Caesar’s anyways and watched another episode of 24. Then Ryan called as I was trying to figure out what to do. I was debating between taking a nap (going to bed), watching some more 24 or a movie, lining up people for sacrament on Sunday or going back to the library to do another phil lesson. I ended up going to the library, can you believe it?

On my way home I stopped by 308 and found Allison watching the last couple minutes of “Win a Date with Tad Hamilton” so I stayed to watch. She had a paper to finish and another one to write, so she was going back to the library and I went over there with her and started on another lesson in philosophy! I’m pretty sure that we were the last people in the library. At 11:20 they started playing obnoxious music trying to get us out of there. Then they turned off most of the lights and came by and asked us to leave. It sure would have been nice if they didn’t have that music playing… we might actually have been able to get done a little bit quicker without annoying music distracting us. I shouldn’t say we and us… she was the one trying to get done, I was just there for fun. I also saw Heather at the library and should have asked her about what happened last night and the plans for next week, but I guess I’ll just have to go over there later.

So I’m thinking that maybe I’ll have to be like Lauren and start going to bed early on Friday nights seeing as how I can’t seem to get to bed at a decent time during the week anymore. I have no plans for this weekend other than getting through four more phil lessons and doing some other minor homework. I guess we’ll see what develops… Maybe our FHE sister still want to go see Bourne Supremacy. I think it is bedtime now… I think I really need to work on shortening these entries and cutting to the chase, but oh well. I don’t really think I have anything else interesting (not that any of this other stuff was) to report. I haven’t talked to Amanda for a while, not sure what is going on with her. I wonder if her & Shelly are still planning on having their “party.” Time for sleep now!

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: ashamed of this? “And if the person with whom I am arguing says: Yes, but I do care;” (The Philosophical Journey, William F. Lawhead, 2nd Edition
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: Allison
3. What was the last thing you watched on TV? Probably CMT, but I watched 24 on my computer tonight while eating dinner.
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is: 10:25
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 10:38
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: Allison laughing, people typing and whispering.
7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?: about 10:15 when I walked into the library. I was walking back to the library for the 3rd or 4th time today.
8: before you came to this website, what did you look at?: I was looking for pictures of the Oakland, CA temple.
9:What are you wearing?: Black Macworld long sleeve polo shirt, blue jeans, boots (not black!)
10: Did you dream last night? What about?: probably, but I don’t remember.
11: When did you last laugh? A couple minutes ago.
12: what is on the walls of the room you are in?: Pictures, or rather artists renderings of buildings, exit signs, other artwork.
13: Seen anything weird lately?: Define weird for me please.
15: What is the last film you saw?: Before I came here I was watching “Win a Date with Tad Hamilton,” but the last movie I saw in it’s entirety would have been Chasing Liberty. Last one at a movie theatre was Spiderman 2.
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: well, seeing as how I failed this test when given to me in my religion class last time, 10% of it goes to the Church. After that probably a car, then a house.
17: Tell me something about you that I don’t know: Well, you allk now me differently, but… That I’m having a great time in Idaho and don’t want to leave…
21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: I will have to confer with my wife before answering that question.
21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: Same here.
22: Would you ever consider living abroad? Are you paying for me to go? If so, then yes. If not, maybe…

Woke up even later this morning… I’m really getting behind on sleep. I was a little on the late side leaving this morning cause I talked with Bouse for a couple minutes, so I didn’t meet up with Shelly, but I guess she was running late too! Rel was good. Psych was actually good today too. I wasn’t falling asleep for the first time in a while. And the best part of the day – no Econ class! I came home after psych and started laundry and then had lunch. I ended up talking to Ryan for a while too. I’m still trying to convince him to signup for Netflix instead of using Blockbuster, but he is starting to watch the second season of 24, so we talked about that for awhile along with all the rest of the stuff that’s going on, not that I could remember any of it now.

After finishing up with the laundry I went to the testing center and took my psych exam and got an 88% on it which is 1% better than last time (after it got adjusted up from an 85%). She is doubling our improvement from Exam 2 to Exam 3, so I guess I’m going to get an 89% on it. I wish that she would have doubled our Exam 1 to Exam 2 scores instead… Cause I went from a 65 to an 85 that time! Maybe I should email her and see if she would. (Ok, done.) After that I took my Econ exam and got a 96%, 2% better than last time. I came home after that to turn around and go back to the library to try and get some studying done before leaving for Big Jud’s. I got my religion reading done, so I guess that was a start. I found Allison in the library replying to one my email which was kind of fun. She wouldn’t let me read it though – it had to be a surprise.

We were supposed to go with our FHE sisters to Big Jud’s tonight, but I guess they bailed on us at the last second, oh well. Steve (from 55) ended up coming with us, which was cool and Christine, Hilarye and Sarah came which was nice. I think we all had a good time tonight, and it was nice to finally get to go there. The girls got the Big Jud and split it three ways and it still seemed like something that I couldn’t possibly eat, but I guess at that point it would have been about a half pound. I have pictures from tonight. I would have the uploaded already if the Internet around here would let me do that!) I can’t stand this Internet! I’ll let you know when I get them online. It was nice to get to hang out with all the peoples for a while. All the guys slowly left as they had soccer games to get to or homework to do, but I waited around for the girls to finish since I invited them and they came out. Big Jud’s does seem to be incredibly slow at getting the food out. I think we were there for about an hour before we got our food and about the same for the girls. I would hate to see them when they are busy, although maybe things go faster then. I do think that I have to admit that I like Fudds better than Big Jud’s, but this definitely wasn’t bad. I should probably mention that I got the double hawaiian burger. I think even Islands was better actually, but this was good… Maybe I just need to give them a second chance.

I came home to fine Jamie (the photography major from the party last week) in the front of PineView taking pictures for a project. I went out and talked to her for a little bit. I also impressed myself with taking a picture of a moving car while trying to keep the car in focus and letting the background blur. I think I did pretty darn good for not having a tripod and it only being my fourth shot at it. (My first wasn’t all that bad either.) When my Internet let’s me upload the pictures, I’ll post those too.

After that it was back to the library to get some Econ done. I told myself I was going to leave by 10 so that I could get to sleep at a decent time, but seeing as how it was 9:30 or later when I got there, that didn’t work out. I was there until about 10:15 or 10:30 before getting my 100% on the quiz (first try after reading the chapter). I came straight home and was planning on getting ready for bed, but I talked with Bouse for a while and then I imported pictures from tonight instead of going to sleep. What is wrong with me?

Now I think that it is time for me to try and get my six hours of sleep so that I can face the day tomorrow. I’m going to try to meet with an academic advisor tomorrow now that they finally got my transcript in the system! The only thing that they didn’t transfer over was my computer apps class, which seems like it should have transferred into the same thing here, so I’ll have to check into that one. Hopefully i can get a plan setup with an advisor tomorrow between classes (no psych) and then get that to admissions and maybe we can get them to make a decision on me! I really hope that I get to stay here, cause I can’t imagine going to school anywhere else… I’m going to miss this place for the fall!

. . . Oh well, I need to get to sleep so I’m not a total wreck tomorrow… BTW, Did I tell you that Broulim’s is/was having a sale on Breyer’s ice cream? 2 for $6! That’s like half price! I got two half-gallons of white mint chocolate chip when I was there on Monday with Ryan… and yet I haven’t broken into them yet! I guess I’m waiting for Al.

WMN 1:7 … the Lord knoweth all things which are to come; wherefore, he worketh in me to do according to his will.

I think that this passage reinforces us to understand that we need to comply with what God asks of us, even if we may not be necessarily sure why. We all believe that God has a plan and knows what is going to happen, so why don’t we just follow what he asks of us, when he asks it of us? I know that I’m trying. I think His greatest work is that I’m here at BYU-I. That certainly wouldn’t have happened if it wasn’t His will. I firmly believe that He used Amanda to get me here and I am very happy that He did. I am anxiously waiting to see what else He has in store for me.

Another long day… I almost didn’t get out of bed this morning after not getting to sleep until 1:30, but I did it. Rel went fine. In psych we sat in different parts of the classroom based on our birth order – oldest, middle children and babies/only children. That was kind of interesting and it facilitated us talking about the effects of birth order amongst our groups. In Econ we did a review for the test tomorrow. I’m hoping that I’ll do as well on this one as I did last time around because I just don’t feel like I know the material as well, but that probably has to do with the effort that I have put into that class lately. (I did actually get caught up in the reading tonight though.)

I came home for lunch, had a grilled ham & cheese, rested for about 5 minutes and then it was off to see who was going to devotional. None of our FHE sisters were going because they had homework to do or something and then I stopped by 308 to see what they were up to. Sarah was pretty much out for the count with all the drugs she was high on because of her arm and the other girls had some excuse or another for not going, so I ended up going alone (which is just fine with me). The message wasn’t nearly as good as last week, but of course they can’t all be as awesome as that one was. I found myself almost falling asleep a couple times because I was just so tired, so i came home and laid down for a couple before going to the library to get some reading done.

Aaron came over for the meeting with the missionaries after dinner. We got through two discussions today which I guess was good. I really enjoy our meetings… I wonder if we can just continue to drag them out… I was a good boy and went back to the library after the meeting to get a lesson in phil done, so I’m only two lessons behind the schedule. (Now I have to do two of them on Friday and two on Saturday.) I actually got done with that fairly quickly because it was short and I really wanted to get out so that I could come home and sleep, but that didn’t quite work out as planned, not that I’m complaining…

I stopped by Birch on the way home to check in on the girls in 308 first, but they were in hiding, so I went down to 314 and was just expecting to confirm plans for tomorrow night, but I ended up staying there for an hour and a half or so. Eric showed up with “the cake” so I had to have a piece of that and then we sat there and talked for a while. The cake was something like chocolate, strawberries and then another layer of chocolate. I will admit that it was pretty darn good! Eric used to work out Outback as a chef and cooks lots of food all the time… I think I need to go hang out with him more often! We just sat there and talked with Heather and other people as they came and went until it was after 11 (guys out). I went back to 308 to see the girls and invited them to come with us to Big Jud’s tomorrow night. They are thinking about coming, so I have to check back with them tomorrow. I think that’s about it for the night… I know I should write more, but I need to get my six hours of sleep tonight!

It seems to be that a common theme throughout these three books is that “inasmuch as ye will keep my commandments ye shall prosper in the land.” I assume it is safe to say that this cannot be stressed enough. We need to follow the commandments of the lord at all times. I believe that the commandments are a blessing, that we are given them for direction, not for restriction in any way. Even those of us who feel that we have been keeping the commandments probably have room for improvement. I know that I do, even though I feel that I have done a good job in following the word. I must try everyday to do a better job of following the word of God and must do so without reservations.

Today has been a long day and I really need to get to sleep as it is 12:45, but I told myself that I need to get back in the habit of writing everynight, so here goes… I was really tired this morning and couldn’t get myself out of bed until almost 7, but I was actually able to do it before all the other alarms started going off. I got back on track with meeting Shelly this morning on the way to class. I didn’t see her Wed or Thur because her class was cancelled last week. Rel was good as normal. In psych class we spent about half the class time in groups discussing emotions and stuff which was kind of fun. . . . I barely made it through Econ this morning. For some reason I have just been having a hard time keeping my attention on the class lately.

I came home, had some leftover mac & cheese for lunch and then some garlic bread. I then laid down on my bed and listened to music for a minute… big mistake! About a half an hour later I was finally able to pull myself up to face the homework. The place was quiet and it was a good temperature in here so I did my religion reading & journal here and then took off for the library to do my psych & econ reading. Again I had a hard time staying focused in the library… I was just really tired and wanted to know what was going on with fhe this evening, but I got my stuff done as needed. I ran into Allison in the library, well actually I guess she came over to me, but anyways, she gave me this flyer for Poetry Jam next Wednesday night at 7 p.m. in the Birch Upper Lounge. I guess she is putting it on, so I’ll have to go and support her.

I came home to find that none of the guys knew what was going on tonight, so I called the girls and Erin told me that they were kind of busy with mid-terms and other stuff and they asked if we could either postpone it or do something really quick. I invited them to do FHE on Wednesday night with us at Big Jud’s and I think that is the plan for now. Everyone is welcome to come with us… (unless you’re taking a test or something…) I ended up hanging out with Ryan and Steve (from 55) for a while. Steve was making doughnuts for FHE and we got to be taste-testers and just hung out for a while. Steve seems like a cool guy… Ryan wants to move in with him next semester. Ryan and I then went to Milhollow (spelling?) for a sandwich because I told Camille that I might go and visit her. I had a roast beef sandwich on sourdough toasted which was pretty good… but I wish they had meatballs! I’m going to have to try Quiznos some time to see what they have to offer, but I better wait a while as I’m already planning on going out on Wednesday night. Anyone want to dare me to take the challenge? What are you betting me?

After dinner Ryan and I went to Broulim’s to get some stuff for him to make a pie for FHE on Wednesday. I noticed that they had Breyer’s ice cream on sale for 2 for $6 so I had to get two half gallons of mint chocolate chip! (Somebody better make sure that I make it to the gym here!) I got to take my shoes off for a minute after we got home before we turned around and walked over to see our FHE sisters just to check in. Ryan wanted to find out the deal with going swimming and I didn’t want to do my homework so I tagged along. We were only there for a little bit before we left. Ryan went home and I went down to 308 where I started talking with Allison for a while. We ended up talking for a while and she talked me into coloring in some of her flyers for the poetry jam. Around 10:30 we decided to go to Wal*mart to do some shopping. She talked me into getting some Special K Red Berries cereal, which I’m looking forward to trying in the upcoming days. We also looked all over for some seeds so that she could grow some flowers and we finally found them. After wal*mart we went to Broulim’s (for the 2nd time today!) where she got some yogurt and ice cream and I got some milk. She has never had mint chocolate chip ice cream! What am I going to do with that girl? She’s a vegetarian too… I swear, this world is being taken over by them! (Not saying that is a bad thing… I just don’t know that I could handle it myself.) We went back to Birch for a bit and then I headed home around 11:30. Allison is from Northern CA, a town called Martinez, by San Francisco. She’s been to Cheesecake Factory and I think understood my fascination. (BTW – Thanks for the picture pyro! Not helping!) She can also relate to not having In & Out, which is always a plus. Speaking of In & Out, Nathaniel, you would fit in great here… I don’t think a day typically goes by where I don’t see an In & Out advertisement somewhere, normally a shirt, but sometimes a sticker or something. Anyways, I had a good time tonight, even though I wasn’t expecting it. Thanks Allison!

I talked to Amanda for a while when I got home and I guess along with getting ready for bed that gets me all caught up. Now I think I’m more than tired enough to fall asleep, so it’s time to sign off!

Zenos’ allegory in Jacob 5 can give us many topics to ponder about. We see how the bad in something can easily take over the good. We also see how hard work can eventually pay off even when others are telling you to cut your losses. We know that pruning a tree is good for it as it allows it to devote resources more effectively and if possible grow new branches, but in this case the roots could not support all the branches – all the bad. We can get so carried away by adding things to our lives, but yet we don’t see until it is too late that these things we are adding may in the short run give us what we perceive to be benefits, but in the long run we are killing our roots. We need to listen to our roots and only pile on what they can support. The roots are similar to the commandments of God. We need to pile on only the good things that we can support and not take on any tasks or projects that we should not support because they could bring us down farther. In my own life I know how easy it is to get carried away with something and then I know all too well how hard it is to turn back – to prune back the bad branches. What’s even worse is that even if we are able to prune back the bad branches, those bad branches have already used up quite a bit of our resources that could have been used for good. I know now that I must choose everything wisely and only choose those projects that I can support and those projects which are good in the long run.

I ended up calling Amanda to see what was going on and she said they were just getting out of the shower, but that they weren’t sure if they would be going to the Texas Roadhouse in Idaho Falls. They were thinking of going to Fong’s instead. No offense to Fong’s, but I was looking forward to the Texas Roadhouse. She called me back a while later and told me that they were ready to leave and that we were going to the Roadhouse so I jumped in the truck and off we were. I got to meet Carlos, Carl and Becky’s sister when I got to Carousel Court. I tried talking Shelly into coming with us, and then Amanda was finally able to convince her to come which was good.

I drove the farthest I have driven since I’ve been in Rexburg without leaving the state, to Idaho Falls. Amanda even showed me a shortcut. We got there and waited for a while for our table (we were a party of 8). They ended up seating us at two different booths next to each other which was kind of odd, but it worked out… well… maybe not… We ordered our food and got our drinks and our cheese fries. Then we noticed that Becky’s table got their salads and then their food. While we still had nothing… As they were packing Becky’s food up to go we decided to ask her waiter what happened to our waitress and our food. He went and got us salads and then we decided that we were getting full and that we had been there long enough so we had them cancel our meals. We weren’t expecting to get everything for free, but they comped everything for us and asked us to please come back again. That was nice of them, and I guess fair considering that they somehow lost our ticket. I’m guessing that after the appetizer came out they tossed the ticket. So, we’ll have to go back there some other time now to find out how good the place really is.

We were also going to go to a movie, but we kind of missed a lot of them due to the late dinner and we decided that it would be cheaper to just rent one. Then we realized that we had nowhere to watch the movie because of guys out at 11! We ended up just going back to 303 and sat outside for a while (Amanda was busy talking to Bouse) and then we ended up going to the park to go on the swings for a bit. After the park we went back to the apartment until about midnight when Janae, Amanda and I decided that it was time for bed.

Today I was up for church… man was it hard to get out of bed this morning after getting 2 days to sleep in! Anyways, as I was getting ready to leave Erin stopped by and asked me if I would accept a calling as the sacrament coordinator. I told him that I would have no problems with that as long as he told me what I was supposed to do. Well, I still have no clue what I’m supposed to do, but hopefully I’ll find out sooner rather than later. I should see him Tuesday for the meeting with the missionaries and I’m sure we can talk about it then.

I was lazy after church. I had lots of homework to get done and other stuff to do, yet I didn’t do any of it. I did get to spend some time trying to fix Amanda’s computer today though. I was going to wipe it and start over, but she didn’t give me all the discs that I needed to do that so I ended up just restoring the system to an old restore point and then uninstalling a bunch of software. I also set her up with iTunes and Firefox (along with finally installing Firefox for myself on my laptop!). Hopefully her computer will run a little better for her now cause otherwise I think we are looking at doing a reformat and reinstall.

I took the computer over to her and everyone there was eating dinner, so I just dropped the computer off and then hung out with Tara, Shelly and Ben for a while. Tara was taking some quiz that had to do with expressing feelings or something… I don’t remember exactly, but it led to me trying to annoy her (well, that didn’t take much effort) and then she told me to stop. Granted, I think she was a little on the violent side, but I think we might have a start there. This does look like it will take a lot of effort though.

I came home from there and did something for a while, but I can’t remember what… I know that I had Mac & Cheese for dinner – Shelly was eating some and it sounded good, so I decided to make some. I know I spent some time listening to music and then Lauren called for her SSN. Then Nathaniel called to tell me that he was standing in the Apple Store while waiting for P.F. Chang’s. Of course, they were going to The Cheesecake Factory for dessert! (Thanks for rubbing it all in Pyro! — j/k I love you!) Then I talked to my mom for a while before Alison & Mike called me to tell me about the new Krispy Kreme in Temecula… Was this just rub it in Scott’s face day or something? Maybe I’ll go down to SLC next weekend for some good food myself! Tara’s got me interested in some Italian place she went to in SLC a couple weeks ago… And there is a Krispy Kreme in Layton.

I went to ward prayer and then went to sweet swap over at The Snowed Inn. I had no clue where I was going, but I found it. Camille’s, one of the girls that lives there, parents own the house so that’s a pretty cool deal. It was nice and quiet down there, but I can see that as both a good and a bad thing, and they seemed to agree. Anyways, I had a good time down there getting to meet them. Camille (probably spelling her name wrong) also works at some sandwich place that starts with an M, but I can’t think of the name of it right now. She said that they serve toasted subs, so I might have to go visit her. She is working there tomorrow 5:30-close and Tuesday 7-close. Wednesday she is going home (southern Utah) for her sister’s wedding. (Enough about her for you guys?)

After sweet swap I talked with Ryan (not Promack) for a while on my way here and then with the roommates before deciding to take my quiz for Econ that I had to do before class tomorrow. Four attempts later I got my 100%. I think I finally made the executive decision that we’re going to Big Jud’s on Wednesday night. I’m not quite sure what is going on with FHE for tomorrow night. We were supposed to go dam sliding, but the girls are now saying that it is too cold so they want to go see Bourne Supremacy instead. I guess we’ll find out tomorrow. Speaking of tomorrow, I should really be getting to sleep…

. . . Well, I must pray and get to bed for real here… Bye Bye…

God only knows how I’ve needed a friend
Who can see through the boldness and pride
Someone strong enough to put my faith in
Someone willing to let me inside
So be a man
And be my man

I dare you to need me like nobody else
I dare you to feel me like you’ve never felt
I dare you to want to want
Want to be good to me

Baby you’ve got your reasons dangling from kite strings
Can you open your hands and let them fly
I know you waon’t always say and do the right things
But some things are worth a try
If you can
Be my man

I dare you to know me like I’ve never known
I dare you to show me that I can be shown
Dare you to want to want
Want to be good to me

Tell me I’m
Tell me I’m the one who deserves you
And every time
Every time you know that you want to
Yeah, I dare you

I dare you to hold me like you never will-again
Kiss me and leave the earth standing still
Dare you to want to want

I dare you to need me like nobody else
I dare you to feel me like you’ve never felt
I dare you to want to want
Want to be good to me

Yeah, I dare you to want to want
Want to be good to me

~ SheDAISY

Everybody needs it, everybody wants it,
Everybody’s searching for someone.
Been down a thousand highways,
I never though would end.

Baby, I’ve been waiting all my life to find you,
Always been one step behind you.
Your love, babe,
I’ve been waiting all my life.

I was tired of waiting, every night was praying,
Everyday would be the day I’d find you.
I grew so impatient, how long would it take to know?
You were out there somewhere, somewhere waiting, wondering just like me.

I’ve been waiting all my life to love you,
All that time I was dreaming of you.
Your love, babe,
I’ve been waiting all my life.

And did I lose faith? (Did I lose faith?)
Did I lose heart? (Did I lose heart?)
Maybe I did, but I never lost my way,
To where you are.

Been waiting all my life to find you,
Always been one step behind you.
Your love, babe,
I’ve been waiting all my life.

I’ve been waiting all my life to love you,
All that time I was dreaming of you.
Your love, babe,
I’ve been waiting.
Your love,
I’ve been waiting.
Your love,
I’ve been waiting all my life.

All my life.
(Waiting all my life.)

All my life.
(Waiting all my life.)

~ Rascal Flatts
Written by Tammy Lee James and Rod Mathes.
(© Copyright Net Music/MaybeI Can Music/River Oaks Music Company/Still Working For The Man Music/Tammy Lee James Songs..)
From “Rascal Flatts”, © 2000, Lyrics Street/Hollywood Records.

Source: http://www.coquet-shack.com/lyrics/Rascal%20Flatts/Waiting_All_My_Life_1035.htm

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can’t undo
If I had my way
I’d never get over you
Today is the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don’t want to talk about it
‘Cause I’m in love with you

You’re the only one
I’d be with ’til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

And I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don’t want to talk about it
‘Cause I’m in love with you

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything
Everything

I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don’t want to talk about it

And I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
And I don’t want to talk about it
‘Cause I’m in love with you

I’m in love with you
‘Cause I’m in love with you
I’m in love with you
I’m in love with you

~Avril Lavigne
Under My Skin

So maybe the lyrics aren’t quite exactly true, but the song is stuck in my head none the less…

Sometimes it feels like this world’s spinning faster,
Than it did in the old days.
So, naturally, we have more natural disasters,
From the strain of a fast pace.
Sunday was the day of rest;
Now its one more day for progress.
And we can’t slow down, ’cause more is best.
It’s all an endless process.

Well, I miss Mayberry,
Sittin on the porch drinking ice cold Cherry Coke.
Where everything is black and white, be de, be de, be de de de de de.
Pickin on a six string,
People pass by and you call them by their first name.
Watching the clouds roll by.
Bye bye.

Sometimes I can hear this old earth shouting,
Through the trees as the wind blows.
That’s when I climb up here on this mountain,
To look through God’s window.
Now I can’t fly but I got two feet,
To get me high up here.
Above the noise and city streets,
My worries disappear.

Well, I miss Mayberry,
Sittin on the porch drinking ice cold Cherry Coke.
Where everything is black and white, be de, be de, be de de de de de.
Pickin on a six string,
People pass by and you call them by their first name.
Watching the clouds roll by.
Bye bye.

Sometimes I dream I’m driving down an old dirt road,
Not even listed on the map.
I pass a Dad and son carrying a fishing pole,
But I always wake up everytime I try to turn back.

I miss Mayberry,
Sittin on the porch drinking ice cold Cherry Coke.
Where everything is black and white, de de, be de, be de de de de de.
Pickin on a six string,
When people pass by and an ‘you call them by their first name.
Watching the clouds roll by.
Bye bye.
Bye bye. 

I miss Mayberry.

I miss Mayberry.

Mayberry: Rascal Flatts
Written by Arlos Smith.
(©  Unavailable.)
From “Melt”, © 2003, Lyrics Street / Hollywood Records.

Source: http://www.coquet-shack.com/lyrics/Rascal%20Flatts/Mayberry_2374.htm