I was up way too early this morning. I found myself awake just after 5 and thought about going back to sleep and just decided to get up and go with it. I enjoyed a good half hour of reading my scriptures, a leisurely breakfast and had plenty of time to get ready for the day and work. I was in the office and working before eight, which caught Tara off guard when she got in this morning. It was busy practically all day in the office trying to figure out the details for a few shows we have coming up in the next few weeks. Nathaniel and I decided that we are going to go on more vacations because apparently that is the time that everything decides to happen.

The branch had a halloween party tonight at Tara’s grandparents. Unfortunately, I was not in the mood to be there. They were just finishing dinner and starting the murder mystery portion as I was leaving, so i don’t know how the night ended.

I think one reason I have been down today is because it is my mom’s birthday, but she isn’t here to celebrate it. I guess I could have celebrated it for her, but that just seems weird. Really weird was also removing her from my address book today. I had been hesitating doing it for months, but decided it was finally time. Some days it is just so hard to fathom that she is gone. I want to just pick up the phone and tell her the news or just hear her voice, but it isn’t possible.