Quickest Route to a Heavy Heart

Well, just in case it wasn’t already official, I’m old. I’m getting older as we speak.

Ryan and I went for a ride this morning. It didn’t almost kill me like it did last week, so we’re making improvements. Now, if we could just get a schedule and stick to it we might be able to make some progress. Work went fairly well. I ended up having to run out at 5 when a customer called and I had to drive something to FedEx to get it shipped for him, so that got me home early and ended the debate of what I was going to do tonight. Since I was already in my car and basically at the freeway, I decided to drive on home.

I actually found another live person on the GTARC repeater this evening. I recently decided that I was going to set out to find someone else on there, so I’ve started calling out when I’m in the area. I found a guy, John, today who was thinking the same thing – that no one ever uses the repeater and we needed to make it more active.

I had a real quiet evening at home. Matt got his new DVR today, so he was happy. I spent some time on facebook, ate some cake and sat down to watch a movie. I watched Sky High. I wasn’t expecting too much from it, but I enjoyed it. As usual, the main character was such an idiot and couldn’t see what was right in front of him until it was made blatantly obvious to him. I wonder if we do the same thing. Are we characters in a movie and people are sitting at home watching us on the screen saying hey idiot, can’t you see such or don’t you realize that? I guess you just have to love how hindsight is 20/20. I’m sure I do similar stupid things on a regular basis – how come you all aren’t telling me what an idiot I am and how I can’t see what is right in front of me?

Warren Peace says to Layla at one point: “to let true love remain unspoken is the quickest route to a heavy heart.” It was quickly followed by, “and your lucky numbers are…” It may not always work out well for us when we tell people how we really feel, but what’s the point in hiding it? Many people will see it, but the one that it matters to may be blind. Sure, it may be awkward, but do some critical analysis, what do you really have to loose? At most, maybe something you never had and were only dreaming of. What do you have to gain? Pretty much, just, the world. You’ll never know if you don’t come out and say it.

I typically hate birthdays because I’m just not one for the attention and I hate giving and/or receiving gifts just because it is one of those times. I must admit though that Bouse generally comes up with great ideas. The Apple stock was classic a few years ago. Today he had an edible bouquet delivered – of fruit! It was quite good. I enjoyed some chocolate covered strawberries this afternoon and am looking forward to working through it some more tomorrow. Batch also brought me some new chocolate which was quite good. And, no birthday could be complete without an ice cream cake which Nathaniel got while picking up lunch.

Where I was trying to go with that last paragraph was that what I do like about birthdays (and other holidays) is it gives us an excuse to talk to people we don’t get to talk to on a regular basis. I got all sorts of random text messages, phone calls, emails, etc from people today who I haven’t heard from in a while. I got to talk to Dale Buzza the other day on his birthday. It’s probably the only time we talk each and every year, but it gives us a few minutes to catch up. That much I do like, and I got to hear from Ashley who I haven’t talked to in a few months.

Well, seeing as how I need to help hold the fort down the rest of the week, I’d better get my old self to sleep. I’m getting too old to stay up late and make it to the office on-time. Oh wait, I’ve always had a problem with that!