I’m definitely not doing so well with this internal debate I’m having. It’s a good thing I’m so sleep deprived; otherwise I’d worry that I’d be up all night discovering that on a “midnight Tuesday you can have pizza ordered in.” Oh wait, I forgot I’m living my life in a Brad Paisley song and not one from Emerson Drive. Also, I’m not eating. Well, I’ve been forcing myself to eat, but it hasn’t been going so well. Lunch o’clock came around today and I wasn’t even hungry. I think I’ve lost a few pounds since Saturday and am trying really hard to stay hydrated.
I spent most of the day today catching up on emails and bills. I actually felt like I was making progress and I saw the stack on my desk dwindle. On my lunch break (at 2 something mind you), Batch and I went to the bank (work), Radio Shack (work) and then Costco to pick up the pictures I had printed Saturday. Most of them turned out really well. I am still amazed at the black levels in the one picture of the moon; I’d have to look at the metadata, but I’m sure it’s at a really high ISO and there is no noise in the print.
I spent some time tonight framing those pictures and some I already had. I think I’m going to stop by Crate & Barrel tomorrow after the temple to grab some frames to match the one I already have the pictures from Wicked when Krystal and I went. I’m going to expand the Wicked wall there with at least a picture of Maegan and I. I may find some other expensive frames I like while I’m there too, so hopefully I can control myself. I also need to find something to house all the pictures of Melissa. That could be nearly impossible, but I need to get it done as I promised it to her over a year ago.
I’m so excited to go to the temple tomorrow. I definitely have some questions I’d like to spend some time discussing and get further clarification on some other things I’ve been pondering and feeling lately. I’m curious what I’ll be doing, but I’m sure it will be great regardless.
I hope I can get some sleep tonight so I can manage at the temple tomorrow. I almost ended up crying myself to sleep last night. I just got caught up in praying and lost it. I was finally able to get myself back into control and then I was out minutes later. In missionary correlation yesterday, AJ challenged us to choose something to fast from for 40 days and 40 sleepless nights. I think the sleepless nights was only for me. I think I’m going to fast from sleeping in as I think that is one thing that has been setting me back lately. I have not been doing so well with reading before I leave for work and I have just been getting there later and later. Tuesday’s will still have to be the exception where I don’t sit and read before leaving, but I think with my destination in mind the exception is warranted. I will resolve again to not leave the house without reading and will help to fix that problem and let me spend the appropriate amount of time by not sleeping in so much. I think it will be hard with my current sleep deprivation, but I’m going to try. And with that note, I’m going to bed, only an hour and a half late tonight!