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He Said Son, Since 1952, I’ve Been

Sometimes the road up the mountain has some switch-backs in it and you end up back tracking in the process of making it to the top. The pursuit of happiness isn’t always happy.

I said some not so nice things tonight via text and twitter, but I am going to stand by them. I’ll probably get in more trouble for revealing some facts tonight that I would normally keep boxed up as well. Hopefully I’ll stand by that decision in the morning as well. I was uninvited to Disneyland tonight due to events from earlier this week. It was clear that Larilyn didn’t want to be anywhere near me and so I guess the event tonight became girls only. To be quite honest, I don’t agree with it, but I would have been ok with it if that had been the way I was told it. Instead, I was told flat out that I was uninvited. Eventually I was told it became a girls night out. The funniest part of the whole thing was that I was so tired tonight I wasn’t planning on going to begin with! I wasn’t trying to avoid anyone; I just knew when I fell asleep at the computer driving an hour to Disneyland wasn’t going to be in my best interest or that of those others on the road.

I’ve been trying to tell Maegan all week. For whatever reason she has been avoiding me, so I left her a voicemail tonight. It only took three attempts to try and get some of what I wanted to say into a 3 minute voicemail (or whatever her time limit is). It really needed to be at least a fifteen minute conversation and I hate that it wasn’t done in person or at least in realtime. On the bright side, it is off my plate now and I can stop worrying about what I’m going to say and instead just continue to wait. Maybe I will have ended up ruining three friendships tonight, but I’m going to be selfish tonight and be ok with that.

I know very well from past experience that bottling up my feelings and not sharing them doesn’t help the situation, so I’m going to try and be more open and make sure my intentions are understood by all as early on as possible. Maegan may still come back to set me straight and tell me to leave her alone, but at least I will know for sure at that point and I will be able to move forward instead of running in circles around this mess.

The rest of the day was pretty crazy. I was back out in the field today, again back at UCSD for a good portion of the day and Batch and I took care of a few other things on the way back. We had a late lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings, without Megan who is having way too much fun over in England right now I’m sure.

I met with a senior missionary from the Riverside California Mission this evening. It sounds like the Alta Murrieta Ward missionaries will be moving in most likely next Monday. I have a few reservations, but I think it will be good and I’m prepared to make a few sacrifices if necessary for a while to give them an appropriate place to live. If nothing else it should really help me be missionary minded and hopefully keep me out of trouble cause I don’t need any more of that right now.

And I think with that I have caused enough trouble for one night and I’m going to call it quits and head to bed. I’m going to try to make it to building cleanup tomorrow since I haven’t been there all month. I’ve selectively neglected it long enough, even if Cynthia won’t be there to guilt me into coming tomorrow.

What It Takes

So it has been a while since I’ve written. To some extent, I’d say that I’ve been busy, to some I’d say I’d been too bored to write. Tonight I’m just not quite ready to go to bed, even though I really need to get some sleep. I guess there are just too many things going through my mind that I’ve been trying to figure out lately.

Let’s see if I can recount some of the recent highlights: The fireside with President Monson was great this past Sunday. I thoroughly enjoyed it and have watched it twice now and have two pages of notes. I never take notes. I hope to collect those thoughts into something more coherent soon.

My favorite song recently, and I don’t mean in the past two weeks, but the past few months, is definitely “When I Get Where I’m Going” by Brad Paisley.

The girls have been keeping me up way too late recently. Maegan and Larilyn came over on Monday night when I normally get to bed between 8 and 9 and I think were here till almost 11. Surprisingly I wasn’t all that tired at the temple the next morning. Lauren came over last night, I was able to bribe her with some brown rice pasta I found at Trader Joe’s, and I finally started watching 24 which kept me up late. It seemed like there was something all last week. I remember being somewhat excited with a Friday night off. I was going to get to bed early, but then I fell in love with the pink roses on my kitchen table and spent a few hours taking pictures of them.

Taking the pictures led to last weekends project of figuring out how to fix the picture problem. My laptop just hasn’t been cutting it with the pictures and it has taken all the fun and enjoyment out of it. So, I thought maybe it was the slow HDD and dug out some externals. That didn’t seem to make much of a change, but did help. Around 11 or 11:30 I gave up and visited apple.com to find out what time the Escondido store opened up. After an impatient morning, I was at the Apple Store and bought a new Mac Pro. It actually runs Apeture and it is really nice to have a desktop again. I want to burn some backups and then delete a bunch of the stuff that I have on my laptop. Actually, I’m starting to like the new OS (don’t remember the cat’s name) so I may wipe and reinstall.

Ryan got me playing with APRS yesterday. He told me the magic combinations I had been missing before. I now really want to get the weather station setup at the house and get it transmitting via APRS and get a GPS in the car that will talk to the 710 radio in there. I’ve also been toying with buying a truck and am considering doing it sometime this year. I think I might want to get it fully loaded with the radio rigs, scanners and other toys, so I might save the full scale gps integration for that bad boy and keep my car a little cleaner, i.e. no more toys in it. Now I just need money!

In any event, I’ve found myself depressed quite a bit lately that life just doesn’t seem to be going anywhere. Clearly I can buy all sorts of expensive toys, but it doesn’t progress me anywhere. I think I’ve lost touch with some things that I need to be doing. I haven’t been reading my scriptures daily. I’ve been very anti-social which only leads to being more anit-social. Something needs to change; I’m just not sure what or how and sometimes I just want to give up. I realize that we have to go through ups and downs in life, it just seems that the valleys are larger than the plateaus.

Oh yeah, I want to plant a garden. I realize I’m not the perfect person to care for it, but I think it would be great to have fresh fruits and veggies growing outside. I could totally go for having a huge supply of strawberries this summer. It would also help me accomplish the job of setting up a compost bin or at least a kitchen pill bug type compost.

I guess Adam Gregory is singing the song of this era of my life right now:

I want to know,
I want to understand,
what it takes to be your man

What’s your favorite color,
whats your favorite song
if i sing it to you,
would you sing alone
i need to know,
I’ve got to understand
what it takes to be your man
what you want,
what you need,
baby tell me everything,
there ain’t nothing
I don’t want to know
cause all I want,
all i need,
is just you here with me
baby let me know so that I can
do what it takes to be your man.

Adam Gregory - What It Takes - Single - What It Takes

MSN Direct Woes

I decided to sleep in this morning. I actually woke up before six, but it was about 7:30 before I was able to get myself out of bed! I had a productive day at the office and got my work email down to 6 messages! My to do list is still growing, but many of them I am waiting on time or other people to be able to check off.

Institute tonight was good. When we first started the class I thought our pace was a little slow and we were getting a little too detailed, but I am really enjoying the pace and the detail now. Things I never know or never realized are becoming so much clearer to me. Sister Dowden does a great job leading the discussions.

Larilyn, Maegan and I went out to BJ’s after Institute because Maegan was starving and neither of them had been there before. We’re checking things off her list of things to do almost as fast as we’re adding them!

I finally got this MSN Direct service working on my Nuvi 680. It took two phones calls to them this morning and a reset of the cord/antenna. It could have been the reset that did it or it could have been the switch between markets that did it as well. (We changed it from Riverside to San Diego.) I then quickly learned that while you have access to all markets, you really only get one market’s data at a time. For example, if you’re at home in Fallbrook (San Diego market) and are planning a drive to somewhere in Los Angeles, it won’t know anything about the LA market until after you have travelled into it. I’ve also discovered that the service is really not that great. I have full coverage in my house, but next to nothing in my car around town. Apparently I got enough coverage somewhere along the line to get some traffic information for LA because when I got home tonight I found that I had freeway speeds for LA, the problem is I don’t know how old they were! It sounds like they really need to find a way to integrate both the FM Traffic and the MSN Direct service simultaneously into the device. Most people would probably even pay for twice the annual fees if they knew they could actually get data that would help them while driving.

Well, enough of a rant there, I’m off to bed! Tomorrow… WICKED!