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Turning into a Pumpkin

I have so much to write about, but I have been so busy I haven’t had the time. I really don’t have the time tonight, but I feel that I need to touch on a few things or just outline them so that I can write about them later.

I went to Rascal Flatts last weekend. It ended up being more of a last minute thing where I just bought a bunch of tickets and hoped for the best. We had a good time – and it took some coaxing, but I got Sibonet to come. I think she had a blast. Everyone else had a good time as well. There was a total of 14 of us, so I hope they all did, but I wasn’t with them most of the time. I got seats for Sibonet and I a bit closer to the front than the lawn seats I bought for everyone else.

The LA Temple was wonderful. I loved doing an endowment there and hope we can go back more frequently. I couldn’t get over how big the ordinance rooms where. I think we figured they could seat about 450. How great would it be to see them all filled someday! I think I need to take that goal to President Smith and see what he could do with that.

We’ve been pushing hard for attendance at the offering in righteousness this week. It sounds like we’re going to have a great turnout. We have just over 80% now for the first time of endowed members with current temple recommends in the stake. Only about 50% of the current recommend holders in the branch are attending, but most other wards at running above 80% committed.

I’ve been out and staying up way too late the last week especially. With either people here or trips to the temple or Disneyland, it’s just been crazy. I had Megan and Ashley over last Monday and we were up way too late playing and talking. It was about 11:30 when i got to sleep I think and then I was up at 3:45 for the temple the next morning. Josh and I went down and did our thing and then came back up with the intent of accomplishing things and getting in a nap. Well, I accomplished a few things, but definitely not the nap. We went back down for baptisms and had a great time. There were a lot of people that showed up to join us for our session which worked out well as we only had about 14 people, but they made it get to the 24 we were supposed to have!

I officially met this sister that i’ve seen in the temple many times before. I couldn’t figure out if I knew her from somewhere before or if she was just so familiar to me from there. She said she comes often so that’s probably why I recognized her. Her name is Wendy and she’s from Carlsbad. It actually seems like I’ve been meeting a few new people lately. Through the various trips and activities I’ve been introduced to some other new people. Megan J is a friend of the Prosser’s they’ve been bringing for a few weeks, but we never really got to talking until she came over last night with Kenny to watch Twilight. She seems like a great girl and I regret not getting to know her earlier – as I’m sure I do with most people.

Batch and I had decided to go to Disneyland on Thursday night since it was his only night off. We got Kenny and Ashley to go with us and we had a blast. As we were getting out of the car Batch told me that it wasn’t going to get cold enough to need a sweatshirt so i left mine in the car. Well as we were walking around California Adventure I started to get a bit cold. While we were eating dinner I decided I was freezing, so I had to go get a sweatshirt. i figured I’d buy a new one instead of going back to the car – you can never have enough sweatshirts. Well, i found this one that I kind of liked, but then I realized that it was a bit girly. I kept looking at other ones, but didn’t find any that really jumped out to me. There was one other one that I showed to the group, but Ashley pointed out it looked a lot like one I already had. They said the other one was way too girly for me and that I shouldn’t get it. Well, at that point, I decided I was going for it and went and tried it on. Apparently the sizes are a bit different for the girls than they are for the guys as the XXL is a little tight on me. Getting it off is a bit interesting. Well, as I was checking out I guess Kenny got a little crazy. As I finished checkout out, he was standing there with a sweatshirt and said something to the effect of “oh no, you’re not going to one up me.” He proceeded to buy one with tinkerbell on it that is clearly a girls sweatshirt with a low cut V in the front and Disneyland on the rear! We had a blast walking around and Ashley was just cracking up!

We went back the next night as Jordyn wanted to go, but couldn’t go Thursday. She went to use up the second day of Maegan’s pass that she wasn’t going to be able to use. Jordyn took the opportunity to upgrade it to a season pass, so we’ll be going back more often. Well, Kenny and I brought the sweatshirts again and had a blast. Jordyn brought a pink backpack so of course Kenny had to put that on along with her glasses. We got some great pictures. Jordyn was also able to talk Sibonet into coming which was great! I’m so glad she was able to come. My feet were so tired after the first night that the second night was a bit rough and we gave up about 11:30.

Tonight I was up late talking online. It seems like there is always some reason that I can’t get to bed on-time, not that I wouldn’t do it again. It’s all been great fun!

I know I’m missing lots of things that I should be writing about, but I really need to get to sleep before I turn into a pumpkin in a few minutes here.

He Said Son, Since 1952, I’ve Been

Sometimes the road up the mountain has some switch-backs in it and you end up back tracking in the process of making it to the top. The pursuit of happiness isn’t always happy.

I said some not so nice things tonight via text and twitter, but I am going to stand by them. I’ll probably get in more trouble for revealing some facts tonight that I would normally keep boxed up as well. Hopefully I’ll stand by that decision in the morning as well. I was uninvited to Disneyland tonight due to events from earlier this week. It was clear that Larilyn didn’t want to be anywhere near me and so I guess the event tonight became girls only. To be quite honest, I don’t agree with it, but I would have been ok with it if that had been the way I was told it. Instead, I was told flat out that I was uninvited. Eventually I was told it became a girls night out. The funniest part of the whole thing was that I was so tired tonight I wasn’t planning on going to begin with! I wasn’t trying to avoid anyone; I just knew when I fell asleep at the computer driving an hour to Disneyland wasn’t going to be in my best interest or that of those others on the road.

I’ve been trying to tell Maegan all week. For whatever reason she has been avoiding me, so I left her a voicemail tonight. It only took three attempts to try and get some of what I wanted to say into a 3 minute voicemail (or whatever her time limit is). It really needed to be at least a fifteen minute conversation and I hate that it wasn’t done in person or at least in realtime. On the bright side, it is off my plate now and I can stop worrying about what I’m going to say and instead just continue to wait. Maybe I will have ended up ruining three friendships tonight, but I’m going to be selfish tonight and be ok with that.

I know very well from past experience that bottling up my feelings and not sharing them doesn’t help the situation, so I’m going to try and be more open and make sure my intentions are understood by all as early on as possible. Maegan may still come back to set me straight and tell me to leave her alone, but at least I will know for sure at that point and I will be able to move forward instead of running in circles around this mess.

The rest of the day was pretty crazy. I was back out in the field today, again back at UCSD for a good portion of the day and Batch and I took care of a few other things on the way back. We had a late lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings, without Megan who is having way too much fun over in England right now I’m sure.

I met with a senior missionary from the Riverside California Mission this evening. It sounds like the Alta Murrieta Ward missionaries will be moving in most likely next Monday. I have a few reservations, but I think it will be good and I’m prepared to make a few sacrifices if necessary for a while to give them an appropriate place to live. If nothing else it should really help me be missionary minded and hopefully keep me out of trouble cause I don’t need any more of that right now.

And I think with that I have caused enough trouble for one night and I’m going to call it quits and head to bed. I’m going to try to make it to building cleanup tomorrow since I haven’t been there all month. I’ve selectively neglected it long enough, even if Cynthia won’t be there to guilt me into coming tomorrow.

He Sat Down in His Overalls

I’m definitely not doing so well with this internal debate I’m having. It’s a good thing I’m so sleep deprived; otherwise I’d worry that I’d be up all night discovering that on a “midnight Tuesday you can have pizza ordered in.” Oh wait, I forgot I’m living my life in a Brad Paisley song and not one from Emerson Drive. Also, I’m not eating. Well, I’ve been forcing myself to eat, but it hasn’t been going so well. Lunch o’clock came around today and I wasn’t even hungry. I think I’ve lost a few pounds since Saturday and am trying really hard to stay hydrated.

I spent most of the day today catching up on emails and bills. I actually felt like I was making progress and I saw the stack on my desk dwindle. On my lunch break (at 2 something mind you), Batch and I went to the bank (work), Radio Shack (work) and then Costco to pick up the pictures I had printed Saturday. Most of them turned out really well. I am still amazed at the black levels in the one picture of the moon; I’d have to look at the metadata, but I’m sure it’s at a really high ISO and there is no noise in the print.

I spent some time tonight framing those pictures and some I already had. I think I’m going to stop by Crate & Barrel tomorrow after the temple to grab some frames to match the one I already have the pictures from Wicked when Krystal and I went. I’m going to expand the Wicked wall there with at least a picture of Maegan and I. I may find some other expensive frames I like while I’m there too, so hopefully I can control myself. I also need to find something to house all the pictures of Melissa. That could be nearly impossible, but I need to get it done as I promised it to her over a year ago.

I’m so excited to go to the temple tomorrow. I definitely have some questions I’d like to spend some time discussing and get further clarification on some other things I’ve been pondering and feeling lately. I’m curious what I’ll be doing, but I’m sure it will be great regardless.

I hope I can get some sleep tonight so I can manage at the temple tomorrow. I almost ended up crying myself to sleep last night. I just got caught up in praying and lost it. I was finally able to get myself back into control and then I was out minutes later. In missionary correlation yesterday, AJ challenged us to choose something to fast from for 40 days and 40 sleepless nights. I think the sleepless nights was only for me. I think I’m going to fast from sleeping in as I think that is one thing that has been setting me back lately. I have not been doing so well with reading before I leave for work and I have just been getting there later and later. Tuesday’s will still have to be the exception where I don’t sit and read before leaving, but I think with my destination in mind the exception is warranted. I will resolve again to not leave the house without reading and will help to fix that problem and let me spend the appropriate amount of time by not sleeping in so much. I think it will be hard with my current sleep deprivation, but I’m going to try. And with that note, I’m going to bed, only an hour and a half late tonight!

Waitin’ on a Woman

Well, to give you an idea of how things have been going: my laptop was so dead that the led on the battery wouldn’t even flash anymore to identify itself as dead. It has been over a month since I’ve journaled/blogged and I’m honestly just kind of happy that I was able to remember the password to MacJournal! If it makes a difference, I think last time I wrote was just after the last time I went to Disneyland and then I just went there last night so I’m writing again. I’ve actually been thinking for a while that I’ve needed to blog, I just haven’t found the time or energy. I’ll be honest, the laptop has stayed in the vehicle many nights lately. It has been kind of nice to just go places and not have to take fifteen bags (ok two) with me everywhere I go including in and out of the house every-time.

If I had to sum up the last month, I’m not sure if I could. I wish I could say I’ve been waitin’ on a woman, but I think that is primarily only tonight that I’ve been really doing that. I bought a new truck, if I may call it that, getting close to a month ago. There has just been too many times that I couldn’t do something with the Camry so I decided to upgrade. I’ve been thinking about buying a truck for a few months now – probably somewhat after I discovered that I only drive four miles to work each day and not the thousands of miles I used to drive a month. I was planning this as an addition, but I’ve quickly learned that having two vehicles is a major pain. Everything is always in the other one and I’ve done the math to find that unless I’m going to start driving a lot more or the price of gas is going to skyrocket (beyond what it did last year), it doesn’t make economic sense for me to keep the Camry. it’s too bad because I really like the Camry. I’ve actually made a few calls to dealers and haven’t been seeing much good news, so I may end up selling it private party.

I’ve found myself very busy at work lately. Batch was gone one week and that just about did me in. I told him that he should never expect to have another week off – or if he does that he needs to plan on taking me with him! I’m very, very glad that things have been so busy at work. There is definitely room for improvement, but right now I’m happy for anything and everything we can get that allows us to continue working and paying the bills.

It seems that I’ve been pulling away from many of the activities of church lately. I don’t know if I’m just too busy with other things or burnt out or what, but it has really been a drag to get me anywhere other than our Sunday meetings. I didn’t even go to the Dowden’s at all last week and only went to branch prayer because I walked across the street. Never fear, the church is still true; in fact I almost feel like I’m doing better in many areas (not reading) than I have for a while. I guess I’ve just been practicing selective neglect in order to accomplish the greater tasks at hand. Speaking of neglect, I really need to come up with a lesson plan for priesthood tomorrow. In my pondering today I was actually thinking that maybe I need a break from the branch. I don’t know where I would go (Alta Murrieta Ward? another singles branch?), or for how long it would be, I just feel I need a break. Maybe I should graduate from the branch?

I’ve been meeting with the missionaries for the past few weeks which I really enjoy. It is great spending time with them and I hope they are getting something out of it. I’ve been trying to find people for them to teach: members or non-members, I just haven’t been doing so well. I just need one new person per week for them to constantly have five people to teach, yet I can’t seem to come up with it.

I can’t make it sound like I’ve been so busy that I haven’t had any free time, cause that would be a lie. It just seems that the free time is so few and far between. Sometimes that can be good, but sometimes I feel that the busyness only leads to more fits of depression if you will. In fact, I can’t think of much free time I’ve had and things have been running away from me that need to get done lately. I have had a letter from Tara on my desk for at least three weeks now and I haven’t responded to her. Some of that is due to a lack of time, but I think some of it is also due to a lack of having a clue what to tell or inspire her with. In so many ways it seems that I’ve been leading a mindless life lately.

On the other hand I have been pondering some things quite a bit. One has had me completely preoccupied all day today and for a good portion of this week.

Last week we (ward) went to the temple – on Tuesday after I had come back from the temple of course. Talk about putting those extra miles on the new car! It had been closed for two weeks so I guess I was just making up for the lack of going there the past two weeks.

This Wednesdsay we had been trying to find something to do that was different as Maegan wanted to get out of her house (problem of working from home). I was trying to find a fun new activity, but couldn’t come up with anything based on what time it was and where we were so she ended up coming over to play Phase 10 after kidnapping Larilyn. Well, on her way here her car started making a funny noise. We traced it down to her air conditioning and set her an appointment to have it looked at the next morning. Thursday, I go down to Escondido to pick her up and bring her home to get the Camry.

Friday we went to Disneyland. Batch came along and we met Marie and one of her friends there. It was such a weird night. I didn’t eat but one churro (which I shared), I didn’t ride space mountain (it broke just as Marie was going to get on), didn’t even go into California Adventure, so there was no Tower of Terror or Screaming and yet those few hours which went late into the night were some of the best I’ve ever had at Disneyland.

So it was about 2:30 when I finally got home. I awoke about 8 this morning and Maegan and I went down to Escondido to get her car back. Haven’t really done anything else today other than finally blog!

Sorry for the short thoughts in some places – I need to get to sleep. More to come soon, I promise.

What It Takes

So it has been a while since I’ve written. To some extent, I’d say that I’ve been busy, to some I’d say I’d been too bored to write. Tonight I’m just not quite ready to go to bed, even though I really need to get some sleep. I guess there are just too many things going through my mind that I’ve been trying to figure out lately.

Let’s see if I can recount some of the recent highlights: The fireside with President Monson was great this past Sunday. I thoroughly enjoyed it and have watched it twice now and have two pages of notes. I never take notes. I hope to collect those thoughts into something more coherent soon.

My favorite song recently, and I don’t mean in the past two weeks, but the past few months, is definitely “When I Get Where I’m Going” by Brad Paisley.

The girls have been keeping me up way too late recently. Maegan and Larilyn came over on Monday night when I normally get to bed between 8 and 9 and I think were here till almost 11. Surprisingly I wasn’t all that tired at the temple the next morning. Lauren came over last night, I was able to bribe her with some brown rice pasta I found at Trader Joe’s, and I finally started watching 24 which kept me up late. It seemed like there was something all last week. I remember being somewhat excited with a Friday night off. I was going to get to bed early, but then I fell in love with the pink roses on my kitchen table and spent a few hours taking pictures of them.

Taking the pictures led to last weekends project of figuring out how to fix the picture problem. My laptop just hasn’t been cutting it with the pictures and it has taken all the fun and enjoyment out of it. So, I thought maybe it was the slow HDD and dug out some externals. That didn’t seem to make much of a change, but did help. Around 11 or 11:30 I gave up and visited apple.com to find out what time the Escondido store opened up. After an impatient morning, I was at the Apple Store and bought a new Mac Pro. It actually runs Apeture and it is really nice to have a desktop again. I want to burn some backups and then delete a bunch of the stuff that I have on my laptop. Actually, I’m starting to like the new OS (don’t remember the cat’s name) so I may wipe and reinstall.

Ryan got me playing with APRS yesterday. He told me the magic combinations I had been missing before. I now really want to get the weather station setup at the house and get it transmitting via APRS and get a GPS in the car that will talk to the 710 radio in there. I’ve also been toying with buying a truck and am considering doing it sometime this year. I think I might want to get it fully loaded with the radio rigs, scanners and other toys, so I might save the full scale gps integration for that bad boy and keep my car a little cleaner, i.e. no more toys in it. Now I just need money!

In any event, I’ve found myself depressed quite a bit lately that life just doesn’t seem to be going anywhere. Clearly I can buy all sorts of expensive toys, but it doesn’t progress me anywhere. I think I’ve lost touch with some things that I need to be doing. I haven’t been reading my scriptures daily. I’ve been very anti-social which only leads to being more anit-social. Something needs to change; I’m just not sure what or how and sometimes I just want to give up. I realize that we have to go through ups and downs in life, it just seems that the valleys are larger than the plateaus.

Oh yeah, I want to plant a garden. I realize I’m not the perfect person to care for it, but I think it would be great to have fresh fruits and veggies growing outside. I could totally go for having a huge supply of strawberries this summer. It would also help me accomplish the job of setting up a compost bin or at least a kitchen pill bug type compost.

I guess Adam Gregory is singing the song of this era of my life right now:

I want to know,
I want to understand,
what it takes to be your man

What’s your favorite color,
whats your favorite song
if i sing it to you,
would you sing alone
i need to know,
I’ve got to understand
what it takes to be your man
what you want,
what you need,
baby tell me everything,
there ain’t nothing
I don’t want to know
cause all I want,
all i need,
is just you here with me
baby let me know so that I can
do what it takes to be your man.

Adam Gregory - What It Takes - Single - What It Takes

Returned from MN, Damaged Goods, Blockus

I’ve just been so exhausted lately I haven’t had a chance to write. Thursday went well with class and so forth. I tried the Twin Cities Grill Thursday night. It was really good and well worth the wait. I’ll definitely going back there. It wasn’t cheap, but it was good. I had a delicious steak for a little less than one would pay at Ruth’s Chris. I managed to miss the first few minutes of CSI back at the hotel and then kept getting interrupted during it. I also watched whatever weird show was on after CSI and then just about fell asleep on the couch.

Friday morning went well as we tried to wrap things up with the class. I passed the written exam and now just need to complete my project. I made it to my flight ontime and it was another full one. I was kind of hoping it would be oversold and they would be looking for people to bump, but of course it never happens when I could actually take a later flight. I sat next to a woman who was coming in on vacation for a week with her daughter and we talked for a while. I eventually decided to try and get some work done, but it was just too hard with the laptop. I then started watching Amazing Grace, but only got about 30 minutes into it before I was asked to cease and desist for landing.

LA Traffic actually wasn’t that bad coming back home as it only took me about two hours once I got to my car. It did take me an hour to get from the gate to my car which is a joke. Nonetheless, I’m sure in this case it was better to take the direct flight than having a layover somewhere else along the line.

It turned out that something was wrong with the recording of the Price is Right, so we didn’t get to see Krystal. One of her other friends apparently has it recorded and is going to transfer it to DVD for her though. I was really looking forward to getting home to see it, and was quite bummed that we couldn’t watch it.

I woke up super early Saturday morning and couldn’t sleep. After playing on the computer for an hour or so I decided to go back to sleep. When I got up the second time I enjoyed a bowl of Crispix and then watched a few things off the DVR before I got started with cleaning the house. I was thinking about going to the temple to makeup for Tuesday, but realized I just had too much to do. I did make it down for the baptisms though. We were way short on people, so I’m glad I went and am very thankful for the help we had from others last night as well.

After the temple, the group that wanted to come straight home decided they wanted to stop at In-N-Out to grab something quickly. I mentioned that if we were going to do that, we should go to Fuddruckers and I got everyone on board. That probably happened because when we got there two people ordered something other than a hamburger which they clearly couldn’t have gotten at In-N-Out! It was apparently homecoming for Mira Mesa or some other area schools and they thought we were there for Homecoming since we were somewhat dressed up. Brother Clark asked me if I was class of ’08 and I just laughed and said yep! I just want to know what the two of us guys were doing wit the three girls.

My counselors finally got called and set apart today. It will be huge having their help and I’m hoping we can figure out who our secretary is supposed to be and then we can really get this home teaching thing whipped into shape. It sounds like we aren’t going to be swapping the hours, so we will be stuck without the guys from mission prep. It sure would be nice to have them, but I guess we will just deal with another challenge.

President and Sister Clegg spoke today. Other than President going way over, it was good. He spoke about sexual morality, coming clean using the atonement and damaged goods. He relayed a story that hit me about a missionary who was planning on marrying his girlfriend after he returned. Shortly after he left she got into some trouble. After she left the other guy and went through the repentance process with her bishop she was pronounced clean again. This elder though didn’t see it so clearly. He had saved himself for her and he thought she was damaged goods. President Kimball (?) told him that he just didn’t get it. She has been made clean through the atonement, her sins have been forgiven. Yet, this elder struggled with that as I expect many do.

I went over to the Dowden’s tonight to post Mandi’s video of us trying to swallow cinnamon. Maegan also challenged me to a game of Blockus. I had never played before and didn’t do so well. I tried to get Cynthia to help me, but Maegan kept coming up with reasons she couldn’t. Eventually, Maegan gave up and everyone worked to finish off my pieces as best we could.

MSN Direct Woes

I decided to sleep in this morning. I actually woke up before six, but it was about 7:30 before I was able to get myself out of bed! I had a productive day at the office and got my work email down to 6 messages! My to do list is still growing, but many of them I am waiting on time or other people to be able to check off.

Institute tonight was good. When we first started the class I thought our pace was a little slow and we were getting a little too detailed, but I am really enjoying the pace and the detail now. Things I never know or never realized are becoming so much clearer to me. Sister Dowden does a great job leading the discussions.

Larilyn, Maegan and I went out to BJ’s after Institute because Maegan was starving and neither of them had been there before. We’re checking things off her list of things to do almost as fast as we’re adding them!

I finally got this MSN Direct service working on my Nuvi 680. It took two phones calls to them this morning and a reset of the cord/antenna. It could have been the reset that did it or it could have been the switch between markets that did it as well. (We changed it from Riverside to San Diego.) I then quickly learned that while you have access to all markets, you really only get one market’s data at a time. For example, if you’re at home in Fallbrook (San Diego market) and are planning a drive to somewhere in Los Angeles, it won’t know anything about the LA market until after you have travelled into it. I’ve also discovered that the service is really not that great. I have full coverage in my house, but next to nothing in my car around town. Apparently I got enough coverage somewhere along the line to get some traffic information for LA because when I got home tonight I found that I had freeway speeds for LA, the problem is I don’t know how old they were! It sounds like they really need to find a way to integrate both the FM Traffic and the MSN Direct service simultaneously into the device. Most people would probably even pay for twice the annual fees if they knew they could actually get data that would help them while driving.

Well, enough of a rant there, I’m off to bed! Tomorrow… WICKED!