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The disapointed Idealist: Love is a big word.

So apparently I caused Lauren to think the other day (kind of scary you might argue):

The disapointed Idealist: Love is a big word.

I think I’d go with number two as well. It seems, at least from the surface more genuine and expresses a deeper love.

The problem is that people all express their love differently. Even the three words “I love you” mean totally different things in different contexts. I can say I love you as in I want to marry you, or just that I care for you and don’t want anything to happen to you and it is the same three words.

Lauren’s Shopping Carts

Now, in big news of the day: Lauren went grocery shopping!

OK, actually she has this analogy of shopping carts to people, check it out:

Steimle ♥’s Wright.: Aren’t We All?

I just have one question: which kind of shopping cart am I?

Further, do we reject people because they look funny just like we do shopping carts? Or my favorite that I am guilty of is rejecting something because it has a piece of trash or something left in it. It’s dirty, it can’t be a good cart. After the search for a great looking cart, do we find that there is something wrong beneath the surface – like a squeaky or dumb wheel? We did it to our-self though I guess. The “dirty” cart probably was in perfect condition and all it would have taken was for me to throw away the flier that was left inside.

On that last matter though… Have you ever considered how dirty a shopping cart really is? I mean, do they ever get cleaned or sanitized? Let’s track this a bit farther. I touch the cart which has never been cleaned (we won’t even examine where it has been), then pick something up and put it in the cart. When I’m done shopping, I push the cart to my car and unload everything. I then get in my car. I’ve now touched many parts of my car as well as all the boxes of stuff I just bought and they are all contaminated.


I’ve been pondering a lot this weekend, probably more than usual and I love it. And I’m talking about more than what I wrote about the last few nights. I think a good portion of it had to do with looking for a lesson for elders quorum today and maybe I’ve also just had a bit more quiet time. I’ve pondered topics such as courage, traditions, being an example, worthiness, blessings or gifts, preparing, marriage, etc. I’ve really been all over the board.

We talked tonight at branch prayer about striving for perfection. I think it hit me tonight that the problem with being comfortable is that we aren’t striving for perfection, or we have given up caring that we are not going to be perfect. We talked about going to look for the one missing sheep and I mentioned that even if we don’t find the missing sheep, if we don’t try, we aren’t even caring to attempt to find perfection or to be perfect. We are to be like our Heavenly Father who is perfect. If we find our selves comfortable with 99%, soon we will be comfortable with 98%, then 97%, 95%. We will end up more than a few degrees off and it will be too late to correct our path.

I’ve been thinking a lot about home teaching and how horrible of a job we really are doing with it. I myself am doing an unacceptable job, I’m trying and failing miserably. Maybe I need to set my sights higher and try even harder. I need perfection and it is the second thing that we can be perfect at. We have thirty days in a typical month to visit three people. That’s ten days per person just to make one visit to their house. If i can’t do that, I don’t deserve what I have been given already. It also drives me crazy that there are many who have not even been assigned a home teacher or to home teach. We have been diligently working on that as a presidency and I hope to continue pressing forward there.

I was thinking during branch prayer tonight that we as an elders quorum, or at least I, in addition to our individual home teaching assignments, need to reach out to those less actives and inactives and get them back into the fold. Even if we only meet with one extra person each month, we could have an impact. I would hope that we could arrange a time to meet with one person a week. Maybe if we split up the presidency and worked with others we could be looking at three people a week or more. If we could make this a joint effort with the missionary committee, activation and activities, we could increase our attendance and have a greater impact. I’m not sure if we would be better off working together as a presidency or individually with other companions. There could be something to be said to show up with a sister to try and welcome members back as well.

My lesson in Elders quorum was really all over the place. I felt compelled to try to do a question and answer session, but didn’t get any good questions. We then started going through the Joseph Smith manuals, but ended up off track talking about traditions and the marks we were going to leave on our future generations. With the prospects of buying a house, and starting my own home, I have been pondering much on these things lately. I think of dinners, family home evenings, family/household prayers, parties, blessings, music and so many other things that could really make the home mine. Of course, the right companion would help tremendously along that path.

On another note, the branch has started moving things back for the summer. FHE and activities are going to be starting later, so I think I’m going to start scaling back my attendance. I just can’t imagine staying at work till almost 8 in the evening – that’s 12 hours! Maybe once I find a place up in Murrieta I can attend more again.

I also got released as Sunday School President today, so I’m down to only three callings!

PPPOE and Password Change Notifications

So I have to wonder: Is there any purpose behind PPPOE or is it just to increase the total cost of ownership. With Adelphia and our cable modem the only times we had problems connecting was when their servers were done. With AT&T/Yahoo it seems that every time we turn around there is something new. It turns out that they reset our password when we called a few weeks ago about not being able to send email. Fortunately, they were kind enough to send an email notifying me that the password had been changed. There were instructions in the email about if I didn’t change my password, such and such.

Here is the brain teaser for this evening: Let’s say I have an account, which has a password. That account and password are tied together for my DSL modem, email account and online/support login systems. Now, let’s say that someone – not me – changes my password. They are kind enough to send an email informing you to your email account. We’ll ignore the fact that people don’t actually check their DSL email accounts because all they do is collect spam, and continue down the road of pondering. Let’s examine option A: I changed my password or at least know of the new password. I can now login to my DSL, member center and email. The bonus I receive for this is an email telling me that my password has been changed. Great. Obviously I knew it had been changed since I had to type in the new password. Now, Road B: Someone changed my password and I didn’t know about it. Since I didn’t know about it, they were kind enough to send me an email to inform me. Ahh… but you say “WAIT!” You’re probably wondering how you’re supposed to login to your DSL, the member center and your email to find out your password has changed when none of the systems will accept your password because it has changed. I know I’m lost, how about you?

So, back to the real question at hand. What is the point of PPPOE? Why can’t AT&T keep track of the mac address of the modem I have or figure out that I’m coming through the copper they ran to my house? Heck, they could have double security and have both – requiring me not only to have a DSL connection at my house, a valid modem in their MAC address pool, but also to be at the physical location that the MAC address was assigned to! Can anyone figure out what I spent time doing this evening?

The rest of the day went fairly well. I don’t honestly have much to report, or at least don’t have anything to rant about.